Tea Time (exerpt from Chpt 23)
July 16th 2013
I woke up to the sound of my father getting ready for work. It was about 5 thirty am, Tuesday. I didn’t feel rested due to the thoughts and feelings I sorted throughout the night. I felt different-I felt new and was fully aware of the new beginning ahead of me.
"Good Morning Beautiful"
I replied and jumped up to give him a hug before he left out. It was a different hug. I felt his sweet spirit embrace me. In those few minutes, he said so much with so little words.
"Be safe, I love you."
He left and I went to be sure Mommi and V were awake. I got dressed got my bags in the car and we prepared to leave out. I insisted on driving so we got in the Concord and pushed it toward Hartsfield Jackson. Its about a 45 minute trip to Atlanta from Gainesville. For that hour I fought tears. Come to think of it I don’t believe to date I have fought harder not to cry then that day.
All I could think about was just how fortunate I am. Who am I to deserve these three people. So perfectly created each of them. As I drove, I thought of the countless times my Ma and Pop took that ride for me. The countless times they sacrificed their time and energy for my dream. I nearly lost myself in the memories.
We got to the airport early. Mommi wanted to come in with me and wait but I declined. We hopped out and as I made it to the trunk. I began to feel the tears rushing to the windows of my soul. You made it all the way to the airport, I said to myself. I hugged Mommi and V hurriedly in an attempt to escape before the tears over took me but I know they heard it in my voice.
"I love you monkey, call me when you land" she said and V followed
" Love you T.T. "
Just like that I got on that flight and two hours later I was in Laguardia.
I caught a cab to Queens and arrived in my new spot. That was the first day I met my new
roommates and now close friends Susy and Ira. From there I explored the city with them. Susy integrated me into her group of friends she showed me so much love.
I got a couple key industry gigs on my own within weeks of being here and took that as a great sign. I got on the ball with setting up shoots and of course hitting open calls for agency representation. Just like the hyper organized nerd I am I made an excel sheet of EVERY agency I could find in NY. I came up with 54. After visiting or either submitting online no agency was interested. After picking up my pride I got down to the last two agency’s I was interesting in.
I got great energy from both but one in particular I felt really good about. While at work (Abercrombie on 5th ave) I got a missed call from one of the two. I later found out that was the number associated with BMG models New York. I met with the head bookers and last week moved forward with agreeing to be apart of the agency.
My desire was to move to New York and push my career to a new and higher level. It appears as if this desire is becoming more and more real everyday. I’m beside myself. I’m seeing how everything was worth it. All the adversity, butterflies, and obstacles. I am seeing that fulfilling your dreams for your life isn’t as hard as fear makes it seem. When you are surrounded by supporters and inspiration it makes the task just that much more easy. I’ve been doing this a while now, I am excited to see what is up ahead.
When I’m not break dancing in the subway for scholarship money, you can find me moving and grooving in Abercrombie with the homies unless of course I’m out taking selfies on my lunch break (at Abercrombie & Fitch)
Check out my feature in Raine Magazine! Every day I am reminded of just how AWESOME my transition to New York has been. I am making great moves and so grateful for the opportunities I have been blessed with! I am learning daily just how fulfilling striving for your dreams can be. This city is so full of inspiration- I just hope I am able to inspire others in return!
Hair + Make up - Marquis Laurent
Photo - Porsha Atalan
Time with Tea
It is amazing to see you. My dreams are coming to reality right before my eyes. While I am with you, where it all started, I can’t help but be thankful. I am thankful for where I have been, where I have come from and enthusiastic for where I am going. I have a big project on my plate which brings me to see you. I’m just trying to keep my feet on the ground as the story unfolds. Thank you for the pain, the love, the lessons and all the memories- it’s so good to see you again. Let’s make some more cool stuff together.
[ Womb-an ] sketch by me.
I was inspired by a piece I saw on tumblr. I never really thought that I could be good at drawing anything. Growing up I would take a try at landscapes and plants. Recently I have found an appreciation for the human body and decided to change my thinking around sketching such a thing. It is amazing what A little effort and positive thinking can do. I think I will continue to take a try on new and uncharted talents I might have hiding within.
These shots are from this summer, before my NY move, captured by the awesome acolorbrownshot. I was coming from a shoot with Kontrol Mag and stopped by his job to say hey! He looked up at me with those huge eyes, smiled, grabbed Jackson (his film canon), then grabbed my hand as he walked me swiftly to the courtyard and just like that, we started shooting. I find my best work occurs when I am not trying or planning but instead working impulsively off of inspiration. With these film shots, Brown so effortlessly captured different dimensions of Tea. Everytime I look back at these photos I smile and reminisce on how beautiful that summer came and went and just how wonderfully life changes. I hope you enjoy these artful captures as much as we enjoyed creating this moment.
Music: Casey Veggies “Life Changes”
Sporting some goodies that I collected a while back at Park Ave Thrift in Gainesville Ga. My mother and I LOVE that place and I can’t wait to go home soon to see the fam and grab more goodies :). I really like to thrift most of my wardrobe because not only is thrifting easy on the wallet- I find that I can really hone in on my personal style and expression with quality vintage pieces which have already shown to stand the test of time.
Take note of my accessories most of which can be viewed and purchased via shop-karmaboutique.com. This online shop is full of handmade jewelry perfect for any look- I hear the designer makes custom pieces as well!
Army Fatigue Jacket: Thrifted - $5
Sweater: Thrifted - $5
Leggings: H n M - $12
Boots : Jeffrey Cambell (sshhhh…they are Susy’s :) )
Jewelry: Karma Boutique
Shot by @photosbyjryussuf for booking contact: PhotosByJRYussuf@gmail.com
I want to extend a HUGE stank you to the staff at Raine Magazine. NYC is already showing me LOVE!
Still giggling to myself as I think about the fun @thenilaughed and I had on set at @thewendyshow Tuesday. We were too live EARLY in the am, I’ll never forget it! Stank you to my sweet thang Tiffany! #howyoudoin?
Tea Time Tuesday.
The move to NYC was a very good decision. I am growing and learning more about myself and the world around me each day. I am so impressed with the Creator’s thoughtfulness in the way that my move was tailored just for me. My roommates are phenomenal and I have no doubt that I have formed life time bonds with some incredible beings. I am blessed to continue the path of my dream furthering my career in a new place and having such supportive beings in my corner while I do so.
To me- To live is to be inspired and in turn, inspire others.
Dress: Donna Morgan - Belk
Leather Jacket: Thrift $15
White Leather Boots: Thrift Gift compliments of Susy
Jewelry: Karma Boutique